We have accomplished much- countless trips to the bank getting papers notarized, going back to the bank to get it done the right way, hours convincing our social worker we are capable of adopting, lots and lots of paperwork, more paperwork and more trips to the bank. And now we are almost done! At least with the paperwork.
We have accomplished so much, and yet so little. As we are compiling the last two pieces of our dossier, I think about the next step. Waiting. We are so close, yet so far away. Once we send our dossier, we sit. And wait. Until we get our referral. And I thought the paperwork was hard!
Some days I am so excited, I feel up to this challenge. Other days my heart hurts for our baby, our baby who is not yet with us. We don't doubt this is our path. God has made it very clear that this is where He wants us. Some days will be hard. Some will be filled with joy and hope. But in the end we will have our baby. I never imagined how hard this path would be. And I am sure there will be harder days, but I know that the best place to be is in the center of His will. Even on the hard days.
One year. A whole year has past. But it has been a good year. And maybe, just maybe, next September we will have our baby. God's will is perfect and we will wait for His perfect timing whether it be one year, two, three, or more.
